to finish what ada and dahlak started, thought i’d post the final lost interview for the first “munday mermon” (been outside as much as possible b/c i’m afraid i may never go out again once winter hits!) of this month.
i always remark at just how much i still think about pac. maybe it’s because we got the same birthday, maybe it’s because i always find myself in some kind of sustained discussion on “hip-hop” and tupac inevitably enters the discussion, or maybe it’s because i’m tired of seeing black men disallowed the opportunity to make it past their anger (whatever ‘disallowed’ means). i really don’t know. sometimes (usually) it’s an angry thought, and sometimes i really just sit and wonder…what would this world be if pac had the chance to make it past his anger??? anger is good sometimes, but i think nothing is ever as rigid or simple as anger would have us believe. and anger is generally self-indulgent, even if you are angry for someone else (i.e. how poor blackfolk are treated the world over or what a world looks like without pac). he was so young, i find myself still wishing he got the chance to grow into his conviction (if that makes sense) because that type of vulnerability is not seen in popular culture anymore. to pac